Most annoying cough

I have the most annoying cough in the entire world. Not only is it annoying to me (to hear it AND to actually do it), but it's annoying to others because it's so loud. This is my curse, this is one of the many reasons I hate germs and hate getting sick. Blah.

So why is it that black people listen to their music so loud? Are they hard of hearing? It would explain why they're so loud too. And why do they always dance? There's a group of girls on my hall that go into the lobby and make up loud obnoxious dances. It's really annoying. I don't really understand it. Honestly, this town, this college, this police department is making me incredibly racist. I'm seeing that the complaints of stereotyping should be ignored most of the time...because the "stereotypes" are actually TRUTH. I've never known anyone personally who has gotten jumped by a group of white people, or robbed by a white person, or attacked by a white person. My mom, Ben, Chuck, Chip, and Jimmy have all had something like the aforementioned happen. Why is that? How can I know 5 people who have had terrible experiences with black people (more than one black person) and it not be called TRUTH? I guess I'm just pretty fed up with constantly having to deal with the black people here who aren't considerate of anyone else and act like everyone owes them something all the time. ATTENTION: I DON'T OWE THEM ANYTHING. (and neither does anyone else....there aren't any slaves alive anymore, and probably no children of slaves. America has bent over backwards creating the NAACP, Negro College Fund, BET, and every other Black entertainment/achievement/whatever award. Somehow, that's not racist, and somehow, they still think we owe them something. I'm fucking sick of it.)


Enough with the ranting.
I'm looking forward to tomorrow. I'm not really sure why, but I have a feeling that tomorrow is going to be a darn good day.

(Only 21 more days until I go to visit Ben!) YIPPEE!

Ooohhh, what a day...

My day started off on the wrong foot.
*My alarm was set AND on, yet didn't go off. When I woke up, I had 12 minutes to get ready and get to an elementary school that is about 10 minutes away.
*When I got back from the elementary school, I parked in a parking lot I thought was for students...turns out, it was for faculty and I got a ticket. (I am appealing it)
*I tried on a really cute dress that was on sale...but my boobs wouldn't fit into it.

When I got home from work tonight, I went for a relaxing swim, ate dinner, and now I'm watching the office and having a beer. Good ending to a day that could've been a lot worse. I could have bitched and complained, but I kept a smile on my face. Hopefully, since today started off badly, tomorrow will be an excellent day!


I really wish I was OFFICIALLY engaged. I feel like I can't start planning for a wedding until Ben ACTUALLY proposes...and if we're supposed to get married next summer, I need to start planning!

Heck yeah!

I went home on Friday...and had a letter from Ben waiting for me there! Yippee! He only had 10 minutes to write it, so he gave me some info about what's going on with him and told me he loves me and misses me a bunch. I have a couple letters and some pictures to send out tomorrow. I've been looking up stuff to do in Texas...Six Flags, Sea World, Ripley's Believe It Or Not museum...there's a ton. Ben can get into Six Flags and Sea World for free! YAY!

I got a call from him tonight, only 4minutes 50seconds long. Not too long, but just enough time to get butterflies in my stomach from hearing his voice. I'm missing him like crazy right now. I would do just about anything to see him right now.

September 26th isn't going to come soon enough.

I'm leaving on the 25th to go up to Justin and Jenna's house. I'm staying the night there and leaving my car there for the duration of my trip. Either Justin or Jenna will take me and pick me up from the airport. It's really nice having such awesome friends.

Uplifting

Since my letter/phone call from Ben, my spirit has been lifted. Just when I thought I couldn't take anymore disappointing days of no communication, I get 2 in one day! I know I should be getting a letter either tomorrow or the next day, so that's what's keeping me going. I miss him so much!

I had quite a day today at the daycare and got projectile puked on by a baby. I then had to drive home and change because it was EVERYWHERE. No biggie...just one of the hazards of the job!

I don't really have much to say except...28 more days!

TODAY! TODAY! TOOOOOOODAAAAAAAAAY!

I love today.

Today is the best.

Today is fabulous.

Today, I heard from Ben!!!!!

I got a letter in the mail with his handwriting on the envelope, and it was filled with graduation information and stuff, nothing personal. It was ENOUGH though. It was enough that I had something that he had sent to me, actually written on with his scribbly childish handwriting. I got home from dinner and my phone rang. IT WAS HIM! I recognized the 21o area code right away! This time, I didn't bawl my eyes out. I did start to choke up a bit, especially when I told him that I missed my rock and he told me that he missed me incredibly and that he cried a bit. I just love him so very very much. I told him that I was flying out for his graduation and he told me he'd help me pay for it! That's a relief. I think Jack might help too. With hotel/airfare/car rental, it's going to be quite pricey. Amazing.
That's how I feel.
AMAZING.
He said he's tired and sore and that he gets yelled at a lot...but that's normal. Honestly, the conversation is kind of a blur of happiness. I was just so happy to hear from him! I'm still soooo happy.

This has been such a great day. I can't wait to spread the smiles and happiness around.

I'm supposed to get another letter tomorrow or the next day. He's got another one too, just hasn't sent it yet. I mailed one off today, so he should get it Thursday or so. I'm mailing another one off tomorrow.
The post office is going to love me.

I think I'm going to go buy an Air Force hoodie.

still waiting...

Waiting
Waiting
Waiting.

I hate basic training! I hate everything about it right now, except Ben! Grrrrrrr. It's so hard not hearing from him! I have this false hope that he'll call today, but I just know that if I get my hopes up too high, I'll just be disappointed...just like I have been all week with no letters.

I want it to be the end of September RIGHT NOW.

I went to the movies with Chris, Jake, and Mike (booo!) last night. We went to Maccronni Grill and then to the Glenwood theater. Saw "Once" which is about a singer/songwriter and him meeting this girl. Very good indie film. I really didn't like the ending though. I would have done it differently. Afterwards, we went and hung out with Jake at his house. Visited with the guys, Jake's dad, brother, and sister-in-law. It was fun, but I was ready to go home...very tired!
I talked to Landon last night too. He has cut all ties with Nikole and is happier than he's ever been. Apparently, she was being really negative and mean to him and after awhile, he just couldn't take it anymore. It's weird though, because I've been talking to her and she misses him like crazy and wants to be with him. Oh well. I don't know what to say besides I'm happy that Landon is happy. He needs it. The new girl he's dating is helping him get his life in order and he's planning on moving back to MO to work with his dad and save up for a car. Seems like this is the first step of many on the path to get his life in order. He's attributing it to God, of course. He said that God's been working overtime and that seeing Ben get his life together and doing something for the future helped him see that he needed to do the same thing. It was a nice thing to hear, and I'm sincerely happy for him.

I'm off to watch XFILES.

1 week, 1 day

It's been one week and one day since I've heard from Ben. I figured for sure that today would be the day I would get a letter. No such luck. I'm actually going crazy. PLEASE. PLEASE let him call this weekend.
I hate not knowing what's going on with him...it makes me think about the "what-ifs". I talked to his parents, and they haven't heard from him either. I know he's busy, but I'm just beside myself. I can't stand not hearing or reading the words, "I love you". I need to hear that! I just want him to know that I'm thinking about him and that I miss him and love him.