I'm not really sure what it is about Hannah, but I absolutely cannot stand to be around her. She opens on Sundays and I close...and she always puts me in a weird funk of annoyance that won't go away for quite awhile. She invades my space and just makes the most weird, off comments. Most of the time, I really don't know how to respond, so I end up just saying , "Uh huh..." Oh well, I only have 3 more shifts at this store. Part of me hates working there, but it's an easy job that I can work during school breaks.
I go back to school on the 19th. Part of me is excited, but part of me is gearing up to be VERY lonely. Most of my friends in the burg think that drinking should be done as much as possible. There's a different party every other night with the same (and sometimes lame) people. I'm just going to read a lot, hang out with Ashley, work on my portfolio, and try to keep busy during my last semester at UCM.
Ben leaves tomorrow. It really still hasn't hit me. I don't know what I'm going to do. Luckily, Chip, Chelsea, and Justin are going to be around tomorrow night. I don't know if I'll want to be alone for awhile. How do you spend weeks apart with little to know phone calls? I honestly don't know what my reaction will be. I am looking forward to growing as an individual though. I'm looking forward to opportunities to put ME first, not thinking of what Ben wants to do first. I usually just go along with what he wants to do because I want him to be happy. I let him make a lot of decisions for us, so maybe this alone time will help me be more decisive.
Who knows. I'm sure tomorrow's entry will be a sob story about how much I'm missing Ben.
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