My wonderful day

Today was awesome. I'll make a bullet list of events:

• Woke up at 6:15am to get ready and get on base at 7:30am



• Went to BMT reception center for a briefing on rules/information/attractions/events



• Watched my Airman during a run:



• Hung out at the BMT until around 12pm when I went outside and hoarded a seat in the bleachers near where Ben's flight would be.



• At around 1:20pm, the Airmen began marching onto the retreat pad



• 1:30pm-Coin Ceremony



• Afterwards, I got to go up to Ben and give him a hug and a kiss. Honestly, it was like no time had passed between us and it felt so right just being there in his arms...I didn't want to let go!



• We walked around for a bit, rode the bus to the BX (basically, it's a military mall) and got a weird drink and shared a cinnabun.



• We hung out there for awhile and I got to meet some of his friends. They're all so nice!



• We went back out to wait for the bus and took a couple pictures:



• Came back to the mini-mall and I got a cool license plate cover:



• Ate dinner at Subway and then hung out with some guys in his flight at Starbucks until it was time for Ben to march back to his squadron.

All in all, it was a fantastic day!

I can't wait for tomorrow!

ONE MORE DAY!!!

Yeah, I skipped a day writing in here. Yesterday was entirely too busy to get a chance to relax and play on my computer. Here's how my day went:

1. Woke up early, went to the elementary school for another day of observation/helping the 4th grade classroom. I actually got a TON of really cool beginning of the year/end of the year activities. She's going to let me make copies of what she's got, so I've got to get me some notebooks!

2. Went directly to work until 5. Little boy whose parents are divorced is still really attached to me. I was cleaning the bathrooms yesterday and he came along again. He does this EVERY DAY. I told him that he could go wait for me in the classroom because I had to use the restroom, but he waited right outside the door for me.

3. Went back to my dorms to grab a pair of pants that I had forgotten.

4. Drove to Justin/Jenna's house to hang out with Justin before Jenna got home from work. We went and ate some yummy authentic Mexican food, then went back to watch Silence of the Lambs (CREEPY!!!). We hung around and visited for a bit, and then Jenna got home. She showed me a picture of the dress she might be getting for her wedding. It's SO cute. They're doing a little courthouse ceremony and taking pictures around the city for everything. I think it's going to be awesome. Suits them well. I, on the other hand, want a ceremony where I have a beautiful wedding gown, flowers, and all of my family and friends will be attendance.

5. Justin went to bed, he gets up really early for work, and Jenna and I watched Knocked Up. It's the second time I've seen it, and it was even funnier the second time around! I loved it, Jenna loved it, but it makes me a little scared to have a kid.

6. Went to bed.

7. Woke up at like 5:00am when Justin was leaving for work. He woke me up because I needed to cash a check and he was going to give me the money and just have me sign the check over to him. Unfortunately, he didn't have enough to do so, so Jenna did it for me when she woke up and we got bustling around.

8. Now I'm at the airport watching people go by, closely guarding my things. I can't wait to get on my way and get to Texas. I'll have a lonely night tonight because I won't have really anything to do but watch tv/play on the computer. Tomorrow is the day I've been waiting for since August 13. I'm so freaking excited.

Soon, I will be seeing him....

THREE MORE DAYS!

How exciting! Only three more days!
I did get a call from Ben last night. It was only about 3 minutes long, but I did get to hear his voice. He told me that he wasn't upset that we didn't get to talk on Saturday, but he was glad we got to on Sunday. Ahhhh. I can't wait.

This morning, I woke up to the hot water being off. This is the third time this year that it has happened. I'm pretty sure that all three times have occurred this month. It's very annoying. What the hell are we paying the maintenence guys to do? Honestly, there are enough of them to get stuff done.

That's all for now, I've got to get to my mock interview.


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Well, my mock interview went well. She said that my enthusiasm and excitement was great, but I need to get some more professional clothing...like a business suit. Ummmm, do teachers wear business suits? No.

I'm so glad I don't have to work but 2 days this week...I get a little frustrated at the daycare sometimes. There's just no order there, and it drives me crazy!

I'm supposed to be packing, but all I want to do is lay around for awhile. blah. I've got stuff layed out, I just need to get it packed!

4 MORE DAYS!!!

Ok, so I've figured something out.

Yesterday when I found out that I had missed talking to Ben, I started feeling sick to my stomach. It wasn't anything big until around 10:30 when Chip and Chelsea picked me up to go to our diner. Well, I was feeling sick there, but I miss them a whole lot...and I wanted to visit with them. Well, we have a nice chat there and then we walk out to the car to leave. I start feeling really woozy and think that I'm going to throw up...I got into the car and shut my eyes. Chip started pulling away and we didn't get but maybe 70 yards away from the diner, and I said, "Chip, I need you to pull over." He immediately did and I got out of the car, tucked my hair into my jacket and bent over. Chelsea came out and held my hair for me and I proceeded to throw up like 5 times. It was disgusting. I felt better afterwards, and thanked them for being understanding. I went home and had another little episode in my bathroom. Felt better and went and had a talk with my brother. I told him what had happened and said that I felt like how I did the night before Ben left for the hotel to go to basic. My brother looked at me and said, "Well, then it must not have been food that upset your stomach the last time. You were worried about him and afraid for him and it upset your stomach. Same thing is happening tonight because you missed the call from him. Your nerves are making you physically sick." Wow, I had not put 2 and 2 together. It seems so obvious now, and I've never had thsi problem before! I've never been physically sick from being upset. It's really weird.

I'm taking it easy today. I woke up incredibly sore (lower back and legs) but a hot shower helped a bit. I took some IB profen and that's made me feel a lot better. I just hate feeling like I don't have control over my body.

I only have to make it through the next 4 days....only 2 until I spend the night with Justin and Jenna, 3 until I leave for TX, and 4 until I see Ben.

Mom told me that Ben said that we get to hang out on Thursday too! I'm so excited! I hope his graduation doesn't take too long. I'm totally ready to go out and about with him. I hope I see some people get engaged at the graduation! My friend Ryan said that at his graduation, there were a few proposals. It'll be neat to see all that!

I'm off. I need to quit being a bum and get ready to go back to school. (blech.)

FIVE MORE DAYS!

Oh boy, I had quite a day yesterday. I woke up at 6:55am, went into the bathroom for my nice hot shower to help me wake up...and the water was icy cold. No heat... My hair was crazy, so I had to do something about it. I ended up washing it in freezing water...not a good way to begin my morning! So I dealt with it and headed to an elementary school in town to teach a science lesson to a class that I had not prepared for. My group and I taught the lesson, and it actually went really well. I really enjoyed it.
After that, I went and got some coffee and headed in to work. I went in and worked for about 5 hours...then the drive home...and work at my job here in town. Luckily, my friend Michael was working, so it was a nice night. Unfortunately, this weird old lady was working, and she kept saying the weirdest stuff! It was totally bizarre and Michael kept giving me these looks like, "Who IS this lady?!?"
So I went home, after a 14 hour day and basically passed out.

This morning I woke up early to go to get to the bank and deposit some money (mom still has not given me her's and Alex's phone bill money from last month...kind of frustrating!). I then headed off for Justin and Jenna's so Justin and I could get out to Worlds of Fun. His friend Amanda came along, and she's a lot of fun. We rode some rides and walked around until about 2:30ish and then Amanda had to leave. Justin and I rode a few more rides and then decided to call it a day. We went back to his house and decided to go see a movie. We went and saw Halloween. It was actually pretty good! Rob Zombie is a creepy M-Fer and it was cool to see the background info on Michael Myers. I left after the movie and checked my phone. Chip and Paul had called me and left voicemails, so I checked them. The first one was Paul telling me to call him back (whoops, I never did) and the second was NOT Chip. It was...

BEN.

Yes, my phone had not registered him calling, and just went straight to voicemail.

I freaked.

I called my mom and she told me that he had called and she had talked to him for a bit and told him where I was and he was very understanding. I feel awful. He never calls on Saturdays though, so I definitely wasn't expecting it! Geeze...my stomach just feels awful over all of this. I really hope he gets to call again tomorrow. My phone will not leave my side.

I only have a few more days until I get to see him....I need to keep my spirits up.

I'm meeting up with some friends at our little diner tonight, so hopefully that'll cheer me up.

xoxo

ONE WEEK!!!

Yes, in one week, I will be able to hug my darling and kiss him right on the lips!

I confronted the girl at work today in a very professional manner. She acted like a child. She kept saying, "Okay, okay, okay...." whenever I would talk. It was very immature. Apparently afterwards, she cried. I'm definitely not intimitating. I just wanted to fix the situation because I was tired of people coming up and telling me that she was bad mouthing me behind my back. Whatever, she's having problems with several people, so I know it's not me. She needs to grow up...stop playing with her cell phone and do her job, stop coming in to work with a hangover, and get off your high horse and quit bossing people around!

Anyway, tonight is karaoke night, and I stayed in. I have a 2 hour 8am class tomorrow, and then I work for 12 hours. blah. I have to get up a bit early on Saturday...I'm going to Worlds of Fun with Justin. That'll be fun. It might end up just being us 2 because his fiance has to volunteer somewhere. It'll be alright though, Justin and I don't get to spend quality time together very much.

I'm off to bed. Hopefully I'll be able to stay awake tomorrow...


ONE WEEK!

EIGHT MORE DAYS!

This time next week, I'll be lying across a king size bed in a hotel room waiting anxiously for the next day when I get to see my darling.
I can't freaking wait. This is going to be amazing.
This is going to be awesome!

I need to rent a car. Ben told me he'd take care of the cost of that. Thank goodness! I've spent enough already! I know it'll be kind of pricey, but we'll need it when we have our town passes!

I started my Frankenstein paper. I had to return my book today, so now I don't have any way to quote it or anything. I'm going to have to borrow a book from someone...I can't just use the quotes off of Cliff's Notes! haha...that is what I'm using though!

My cough will NOT go away. It's KILLING ME. I've taken a benadrill (not sure if that's how you spell it), so I think I may stop working on my paper because they always make me really tired.

Today was an EXTREMELY stressful day at the daycare. We had 2 people call in, so I got stuck cleaning the kitchen, 4 bathrooms, AND my classroom while watching 30 school age kids. Luckily, my friend Jessica who works there, took my class outside so I could get my cleaning done. I was rushing about trying to get stuff done by 5 when she had to leave and no one else was helping me out. There are 2 teachers in the two year olds room and neither one of them stepped out to help. In fact, this bitch M, actually told me (after I had taken out the trash) that I needed to come back later to check the diaper trash again because she wasn't done with diapers. Hmmm, no bitch, you're going to take it out yourself. Get off of your cell phone, stop talking about your soriety and do your freaking job. So I was just stressed. This is strike 3 for that girl with me...next time she tells me to do something, I'm going to go off. A few days ago, I was taking out trash and she goes, "Take the diaper trash" Ummmm, I know. Does she not realize that I've been there longer than she has? Then yesterday, B told me that M was complaining that I hadn't taken out the trash on Friday and it was left all weekend. Funny...I left at 1 on Friday. Trash isn't taken out until around 4:30/5:00ish. So who was supposed to take it out? Not me...but she blamed it on me. I swear...she doesn't know who she's messing with. No one at work has seen my mean side, but she's about to unleash it and it's not going to be pretty.

Anyway...I just looked up some information on my hotel that I'm staying in. I think I'll be able to keep myself busy...they've got an outdoor pool AND an indoor hottub! So when I'm there without Ben, I can go swimming and relax. I guess I should bring some magazines or a book with me to read. That'll be so nice!

I'm looking up wedding dresses right now. I really hope I can find the PERFECT one. I'm incredibly picky...and it's going to be even worse while I'm finding a wedding dress!

I'm off to go browse the internet. Hopefully this cough won't kill me tonight.

9 MORE DAYS!

I sent off a couple letters and some pictures to Ben today. I hope he gets them soon!

Nothing really exciting happened today, I did my second PDS class. I really love it! It is going to be so much work to run a classroom of my own, but I know through doing these courses and student teaching, I'll be more prepared. I just have to be positive and know it's going to suck for awhile. Every teacher I've talked to has told me that.

I'm working on getting all of my homework for the next two weeks done before I leave for TX. It's going to be hard, but I've got some done already. I'm most dreading doing my Frankenstein paper because I haven't read the book. I tried, but it's SO boring, and there's other books that I'm actually interested in reading. It's so hard for me to read something I'm completely not interested in. Oh well...I think I'll be ok. I'm going to go over my paper with a friend that actually read most of it...hopefully that'll help. I usually do well with stuff like this, but I'm just nervous because this is the first thing we're turning in, so I don't know how he grades yet. Let's pray that I do well...because I'm not going to read that damn book. I don't think they take interest/relevancy into consideration when assigning books...he's done so much more on the French Revolution...we spent ONE DAY (not even the entire period) talking about the romantic period...and that's what our paper is supposed to relate to. blah.

Sometimes when I'm bored, I'll get on myspace and start browsing through people's myspaces that I know or knew...and some of them just make me sick. I mean, how can people be such tools? How can people be so lame and gross? I just can't imagine acting/saying stuff that they do, and it kind of makes me pity them. Maybe I'm acting all high and mighty...but I don't think so.

Anyway, that's all for now...except I wish something would be done about the people screaming and laughing in the lobby (right by my door) at 1 in the morning. I want to punch all of them in the gut.

NINE MORE DAYS!
NINE MORE DAYS!
NINE MORE DAYS!

TEN MORE DAYS!

I can't believe it, but in 10 days, I get to see the love of my life.

It's been one month and four days. (WAY too long) I looked on the schedule sheet, and it says something about the airmen getting base liberty after some ceremony at 2:30. So...that's like another couple hours with Ben that I didn't know I was getting!!! Super exciting.

Today was a long day. I'm not really sure why it was so long, but work seemed to drag, school dragged, and my trip to walmart dragged. It feels so good to lay on my bed and play around on the internet.

I wish I had money.

blah, I'd better go work on some homework or something.

Relief

Wow, yesterday was a bit stressful.

Around 6:40pm, I heard my voicemail tone from my phone. My phone was in my pocket, and hadn't rang, so I wondered what was up. I checked my voicemail, and Ben had called...TWICE. My phone had failed me. He sounded so sad on the phone, and I just started bawling. I couldn't believe that I had missed his call...I keep my phone on me at all times! I called my mom to tell her what had happened, and to cry to her, and he called again! Oh my, what a relief! I was crying when I answered the phone, and he was so relieved!
Here's the update:
Ben is doing good. He got back from Warrior Week yesterday...and he HATED it! I'm sure it was rough. He has to go back tomorrow and on Monday he retakes the gas mask test...which means he goes back in the gas chamber. The thought of that makes me sick to my stomach. He'll do fine, but just knowing that he's in that situation makes me want to throw up.

He got his pictures taken in his blues. (I GET AN 8x10 AND A WALLET!) I'm super excited to see them. He also ordered a training video that's about three hours long that shows footage from basic training. He says that there's a video of the graduation that you can order too! Amazing.

He needs thoughts and prayers. He is trying to complete his physical training for his evaluation and needs to do 45 push ups in a minute and 50 situps in a minute. He's working really hard on it, and if he doesn't make it, he gets put into this group...if he still can't make it, he gets recycled back a week...which means my plane ticket/hotel reservation is basically gone. Please pray for him and pray that we'll both have some peace of mind about all of this. I know he can do it. He's done so much already! Today, he ran a 5K!!! Can you believe that? He says he's losing weight.

He has another evaluation coming up, so tonight he had to shine his shoes and clip the strings off his blues. Everything has to be perfect.

I can't even explain the relief I felt after talking to him. I felt like a weight had been lifted off my chest and I could breathe again.

Only 11 more days until I get to see him....11 more days...

A lazy day

I'm having a lazy day. I've just been laying around all day...playing on the computer, drawing, and just bumming around. It's been quite nice.



I'm going to work on some crafty stuff tonight. I'm pretty pumped about it. I don't know why I'm not doing it already...I guess I just felt the urge to write in here.



I don't have much to say except that I am missing him like crazy. It's getting ridiculous, and it feels like...it's taking FOREVER for him to graduate basic training.



I filled out a form that I'm going to hand in to student teach. I've chosen 4 different towns to student teach in, and hopefully, I'll get my first choice! I'm hoping hoping hoping!



Time to go be crafty.




*EDIT*
This is the bulletin I posted on myspace after talking to Ben:
Wow, what a stressful minute. I heard my voicemail tone, checked it, and apparently, Ben had tried to call me twice. I thought all hope was lost...but he called back again.(I hate my phone...it was in my pocket and didn't ring!!!)Ben is doing good. He got back from Warrior Week yesterday...and he HATED it! I'm sure it was rough. He has to go back tomorrow and on Monday he retakes the gas mask test...which means he goes back in the gas chamber. The thought of that makes me sick to my stomach. He'll do fine, but just knowing that he's in that situation makes me want to throw up.

He got his pictures taken in his blues. (I GET AN 8x10 AND A WALLET!) I'm super excited to see them. He also ordered a training video that's about three hours long that shows footage from basic training. He says that there's a video of the graduation that you can order too! Amazing.

He needs your thoughts and prayers. He is trying to complete his physical training for his evaluation and needs to do 45 push ups in a minute and 50 situps in a minute. He's working really hard on it, and if he doesn't make it, he gets put into this group...if he still can't make it, he gets recycled back a week...which means my plane ticket/hotel reservation is basically gone. Please pray for him and pray that we'll both have some peace of mind about all of this. I know he can do it. He's done so much already! Today, he ran a 5K!!! Can you believe that? He says he's losing weight.He has another evaluation coming up, so tonight he had to shine his shoes and clip the strings off his blues. Everything has to be perfect.

ATTENTION:He wants people to send him letters and pictures!!! Please do so! You'd want people to do the same if you were off in another state without your family or friends!If you'd like his address, please send me a message and I will give it to you!

That's all, just remember to keep him in your thoughts and prayers!

Fridays are sleepy days

After going out on Thursdays, then waking up at like 6:55am on Fridays...I get a little exhausted and end up crashing on Friday nights. I know it's probably not good for me, but Thursdays are the only nights I go out really, so whatev.

Today was a pretty good day. I went to class (boring), went to work, and came home. I did find a song that made me cry on the way home though. It's by HelloGoodbye, and I am going to post the lyrics:

"Oh, It Is Love"
Oh, it is love
From the first time I set my eyes up on yours
Thinking oh, is it love?
Oh dearIt's been hardly a moment
And you are already missed
There is still a bit of your skin
That I've yet to have kissed
Oh say please do not go
But you know, oh, you know that I must
Oh say I love you so
But you know, oh, you know you can trust
We'll be holding hands once again
All our broken plans I will mend
I will hold you tight so you know
It is love from the first
Time I pressed my hand into yours
Thinking oh is it love?

Oh, dear, it's been hardly three days
And I'm longing to feel your embrace.
There are several days
Until I can see your sweet face.
Oh say, wouldn't you like to be older and married with me
Oh say, wouldn't it be nice to know right now that we'll be
Someday holding hands in the end
All our broken plans will have been
I will kiss you soft so you know
It is love from the first
Time I pressed my lips against yours
Thinking oh is it love?

Your heart may long for love that is more near
So when I'm gone these words will be here
To ease every fear
And dry up every tear
And make it very clearI kiss you and I know
It is love from the first
Time I pressed my lips against yours
Thinking oh is it love?
Oh it is love from the first
Time I pressed my lips against yours
Thinking oh is it love?
I kiss you and I know
It is love from the first
Time I pressed my lips onto yours
Thinking oh is it love?

It just made me think of Ben and how much I miss him. The days are going by so slowly, and it's almost driving me insane!

In other news, I bought Harry and the Hendersons tonight at Walmart for $9.94! Amazing, right? I know Wal-mart is supposed to be this gigantic corporation and it's evil and whatnot, but I find the coolest stuff there!

I'm off to watch my new movie and probably cry...because I remember crying when I watched it when I was little. Maybe it's what I need to do.

Oh dear.

Today started off rocky. I went into work early because there was a girl who needed to go the doctor. I worked in the infant room and all of the babies cried and cried and cried. NOTHING could comfort them! Not even holding them and playing with them was satisfying them. It was REALLY frustrating. Then, we had an AFLAC guy come in and when I asked about whether or not a pre-existing condition treatment would be covered, he said no. Then he went on to say something like people need to always be covered in case something happens because if they have a pre-existing condition, they're uninsurable. That guy was gambling his life by pissing me off at that moment. I seriously left work in tears.
I picked myself up and called my mom. She always makes me feel better.

I went to class, then baaaaaack to work. yaaaay. This time, it was a bit better, but I am a bit tired of this girl I work with complaining about me. I am doing my best, and if there was a set routine in the classroom, I think it would run more smoothly. But noooooooooo, she taught it last year and thinks that she knows what she's doing. There is absolutely no order and it drives me crazy.

Anyway, I left work, had dinner with Ashley, and came back and vegged out for the rest of the night. It was quite nice. I'm trying to be positive about stuff, because if I let myself get down, it'll be really hard to bring myself up. There's a lot of stuff that could keep me down, and a lot of that is Ben being away and me missing him.

Ohhh boy.

Tomorrow is karaoke night! I hope it's a fun night!

*Also, why the hell does my suitemate take showers at 11:30pm? It's so freaking annoying*

The days are great!

Ok, I've just been having a great week so far! Classes have been good, life has been good, friends have been good. The only thing that would make it better would be if Ben was around. (but I'll see him in 2 weeks and 1 day!)

Today was my first day of PDS. It was amazing. I actually had a great teacher who was all willing to let me get out into the class and help out during lessons. She's great with sharing information and really getting both me and my partner out there into teaching. The kids really warmed up too. We had to go outside for a pledge at the flagpole (as it was Patriot Day) and it was a bit chilly. One girl had on a long-sleeve shirt and a jacket and gave me her jacket to wear! Luckily, I'm small enough that it fit! Later on, some of the kids asked me if I would play four square with them when we went out for recess. It was a lot of fun, and it was great seeing the actual teacher playing too! She didn't just stand back and observe the kids.

I went to the Independence Center with my friend Ashley today. We went to a few shops and managed to find a beautiful dress for me to wear to Ben's graduation. I wish it was online so I could post a picture, but alas, it's not on the website. Fortunately, I'll take a bazillion pictures while I'm in Texas, so there'll be some of me wearing it. I also found the cutest pair of high heeled shoes for $7! All in all, the dress and shoes cost me less than $40. That's all I really wanted too.

Ashley and I came across a variety of...well, "dull light bulbs" at the mall. The girls at the store I bought my dress at were saying stuff like, "Oh-mi-gawd! I like love you!" "No way, I like totally love you way more!" "Umm, like, do you guys want to go get candy at that Tropicana place?" "No way, like, isn't that place for like, healthy ice cream or something?" Yeah. Ashley and I just wanted them to hurry up so we could get the hell out of there before our IQs dropped any more.
There was a girl working at the pretzel place that was overly excited to be there. "You have a SUPER day and thanks SO MUCH for coming and visiting us! COME BACK SOON!!!" Yeah, it was a little weird. It was a good laugh though.
Then there were the greasy, gothic, punk wanna-be kids at the pet store that kept tapping on the glass (there are clearly pointed signs that say not to do that) and they kept sticking their hands and faces into the open top "cages". I really wanted a ferret to just jump up and bite them in the face. I also wonder if anyone has ever explained the full benefits of taking showers. I wanted to, but that would involve face to face contact, and I just wasn't up for that. Again, Ashley and I got a good laugh.

I'm really enjoying my new laptop. I'm looking forward to using it for future projects AND bringing it to TX. I want to be able to let Ben check his internet stuff AND I want to watch movies on the plane. (How high tech am I?)

Oh, and something that's kind of bothering me. A "friend" of mine just had a baby. Throughout various points of her pregnancy I would call her, check up on her, give her advice (if needed), or just give her an open ear to vent to. I thought I was being a pretty good friend. She never called me or contacted any of the people in my friends group. After her baby was born, I went over and visited a few times, still called her, checked up on her via myspace, etc...and one day she just stopped responding. Ok. That's fine. If she didn't have time, that was ok. I would still comment on her many blogs, complaining about how awful everything always is for her. I read one the other day about how terrible people were because they don't call her to hang out and she is blaming it on everyone just wanting to drink all the time and she's grown up and mature and has a baby. (Oh, and how did she get pregnant? Oh, sleeping with some guy she didn't even LIKE and STILL doesn't. She's living with him because he and his family pay for everything. Yeah, that's mature). Anyway, she says that I never invite her to do anything. Ok, I never invite anyone to do anything. If you talk to me, you know what's going on. Most of what I do goes on in Warrensburg. If she doesn't call me or comment me back, then how is she going to know what's going on? Hmmmm? Yeah. Just kind of bothers me that she is complaining all the time about how terrible her life is and then saying in EVERY BLOG how much she loves her baby and how grown up she is. It just seems like she's trying to convince herself of something. It's dumb and I'm done with it. I don't go the extra mile for people who are like that. I'm not going to go out of my way for someone who doesn't even respond to me! That's just silly!
Oh, and she mentioned something about Ben not being a good friend because he didn't invite her to do stuff. Ummmm, remember how he's in bootcamp? Yeah. Oh, and Chip because he didn't invite her to his housewarming party. Just like Jessica, she's getting upset at me for not inviting her to an event that I'm not throwing! Those two are like peas in a pod and can have each other for friends. I have way too many other things to think about and way too many other friends that I'd rather talk to. Seriously...and this isn't the first time this has happened with this person. She's pulled this shit before. Guess I should stop being so nice and just write her out of my life.
*end rant*

Funny thing is, even that crap didn't shake my great mood.


Come ON September 26th! When are you going to get here already?!?

What a day, what a day!

What a fantastic day I had yesterday!

1. I finally bought myself a laptop. I realize that I will need one for student teaching AND when I actually go into the field to teach, I'll need one to take to class. I think I made the right decision. I even got approved for a $4000 credit card at Best Buy! When I use it, I get reward points and gift cards for Best Buy. Pretty cool, right?

2. Mom and I got to hang out the entire day WITHOUT GATOR. There was no mean-ness, there wasn't anybody trying to make us feel bad or trying to make us buy him everything he sets his eyes on. It was a wonderful, relaxing day of walking around and shopping. We ate Chinese, walked around the various stores, and just had a grand time!

3. We went into Borders to hang out for a bit while my computer was getting ready, and as we were leaving, I spotted this book that I've been wanting to read since April on a shelf! I picked it up and it was only $7...so I got it. The Golden Compass.

4. Mom and I went to Wal-mart afterwards and I checked out the calendars. Guess what I found...THE OFFICE CALENDAR. Only $4.93. Yes, I bought it.

5. As I was sitting at the kitchen table, playing with my new laptop, my phone rings. It was BEN! I got to talk to him for a bit. He told me that their flight had done really well and they had received 2 hours base liberty! He had a calling card and was able to call me TWICE last night. It was amazing talking to him, and hearing all about what is going on with his life and everything. I'm checking off the days...I can't wait to go to Texas! I asked him last night if he was still wanting to get married next summer. He said, "Well, yeah, that's what I've been telling everyone! Start looking at dates so we can pick one out!" I told him that I wanted to make it "official" and he told me that we could do that when he was in tech school.

September 26th isn't coming fast enough!

6. I went to Chip's housewarming party last night and hung out with a lot of really sweet people that I don't get to see much of...besides with a bunch of party sluts in Warrensburg. I really do miss the days when we could all get together and see one another outside of Warrensburg not have a bunch of random drunk people around like it is at the 400. Oh well.
Eli and I had some really good talks about Ben. He misses him like CRAZY, even cried in front of me last night. He wishes he would have joined up with Ben and would have gone to basic and tech school with him. When I told him that some stuff he did reminded me of Ben, he teared up and told me that that made him really happy. He wants to get his shit together so that he can take a trip and go see Ben. There was more, but that was basically what we talked about.


Today is grandparent's day, so the grandkids and the respective parents are all going over to my grandad's house for a little get together. It'll be fun!

Most annoying cough

I have the most annoying cough in the entire world. Not only is it annoying to me (to hear it AND to actually do it), but it's annoying to others because it's so loud. This is my curse, this is one of the many reasons I hate germs and hate getting sick. Blah.

So why is it that black people listen to their music so loud? Are they hard of hearing? It would explain why they're so loud too. And why do they always dance? There's a group of girls on my hall that go into the lobby and make up loud obnoxious dances. It's really annoying. I don't really understand it. Honestly, this town, this college, this police department is making me incredibly racist. I'm seeing that the complaints of stereotyping should be ignored most of the time...because the "stereotypes" are actually TRUTH. I've never known anyone personally who has gotten jumped by a group of white people, or robbed by a white person, or attacked by a white person. My mom, Ben, Chuck, Chip, and Jimmy have all had something like the aforementioned happen. Why is that? How can I know 5 people who have had terrible experiences with black people (more than one black person) and it not be called TRUTH? I guess I'm just pretty fed up with constantly having to deal with the black people here who aren't considerate of anyone else and act like everyone owes them something all the time. ATTENTION: I DON'T OWE THEM ANYTHING. (and neither does anyone else....there aren't any slaves alive anymore, and probably no children of slaves. America has bent over backwards creating the NAACP, Negro College Fund, BET, and every other Black entertainment/achievement/whatever award. Somehow, that's not racist, and somehow, they still think we owe them something. I'm fucking sick of it.)


Enough with the ranting.
I'm looking forward to tomorrow. I'm not really sure why, but I have a feeling that tomorrow is going to be a darn good day.

(Only 21 more days until I go to visit Ben!) YIPPEE!

Ooohhh, what a day...

My day started off on the wrong foot.
*My alarm was set AND on, yet didn't go off. When I woke up, I had 12 minutes to get ready and get to an elementary school that is about 10 minutes away.
*When I got back from the elementary school, I parked in a parking lot I thought was for students...turns out, it was for faculty and I got a ticket. (I am appealing it)
*I tried on a really cute dress that was on sale...but my boobs wouldn't fit into it.

When I got home from work tonight, I went for a relaxing swim, ate dinner, and now I'm watching the office and having a beer. Good ending to a day that could've been a lot worse. I could have bitched and complained, but I kept a smile on my face. Hopefully, since today started off badly, tomorrow will be an excellent day!


I really wish I was OFFICIALLY engaged. I feel like I can't start planning for a wedding until Ben ACTUALLY proposes...and if we're supposed to get married next summer, I need to start planning!

Heck yeah!

I went home on Friday...and had a letter from Ben waiting for me there! Yippee! He only had 10 minutes to write it, so he gave me some info about what's going on with him and told me he loves me and misses me a bunch. I have a couple letters and some pictures to send out tomorrow. I've been looking up stuff to do in Texas...Six Flags, Sea World, Ripley's Believe It Or Not museum...there's a ton. Ben can get into Six Flags and Sea World for free! YAY!

I got a call from him tonight, only 4minutes 50seconds long. Not too long, but just enough time to get butterflies in my stomach from hearing his voice. I'm missing him like crazy right now. I would do just about anything to see him right now.

September 26th isn't going to come soon enough.

I'm leaving on the 25th to go up to Justin and Jenna's house. I'm staying the night there and leaving my car there for the duration of my trip. Either Justin or Jenna will take me and pick me up from the airport. It's really nice having such awesome friends.