4 MORE DAYS!!!

Ok, so I've figured something out.

Yesterday when I found out that I had missed talking to Ben, I started feeling sick to my stomach. It wasn't anything big until around 10:30 when Chip and Chelsea picked me up to go to our diner. Well, I was feeling sick there, but I miss them a whole lot...and I wanted to visit with them. Well, we have a nice chat there and then we walk out to the car to leave. I start feeling really woozy and think that I'm going to throw up...I got into the car and shut my eyes. Chip started pulling away and we didn't get but maybe 70 yards away from the diner, and I said, "Chip, I need you to pull over." He immediately did and I got out of the car, tucked my hair into my jacket and bent over. Chelsea came out and held my hair for me and I proceeded to throw up like 5 times. It was disgusting. I felt better afterwards, and thanked them for being understanding. I went home and had another little episode in my bathroom. Felt better and went and had a talk with my brother. I told him what had happened and said that I felt like how I did the night before Ben left for the hotel to go to basic. My brother looked at me and said, "Well, then it must not have been food that upset your stomach the last time. You were worried about him and afraid for him and it upset your stomach. Same thing is happening tonight because you missed the call from him. Your nerves are making you physically sick." Wow, I had not put 2 and 2 together. It seems so obvious now, and I've never had thsi problem before! I've never been physically sick from being upset. It's really weird.

I'm taking it easy today. I woke up incredibly sore (lower back and legs) but a hot shower helped a bit. I took some IB profen and that's made me feel a lot better. I just hate feeling like I don't have control over my body.

I only have to make it through the next 4 days....only 2 until I spend the night with Justin and Jenna, 3 until I leave for TX, and 4 until I see Ben.

Mom told me that Ben said that we get to hang out on Thursday too! I'm so excited! I hope his graduation doesn't take too long. I'm totally ready to go out and about with him. I hope I see some people get engaged at the graduation! My friend Ryan said that at his graduation, there were a few proposals. It'll be neat to see all that!

I'm off. I need to quit being a bum and get ready to go back to school. (blech.)