It's been awhile

I've been so busy lately, it's hard to get a chance to write on here...and it seems like everything that I want to write about, or vent about keeps building up and it's almost overwhelming.

Cornerstone: It was fun. Got lost on the way there because I had wrong directions, and the signs pointing to the site was for the backgate...which we could not enter. This situation provided Ben with a lot of chances to make fun of me and my inability to get places. Whatev. We got there the morning of my birthday (at around 2am). The only person who called was Ashley. I was very thankful for that. I got some texts after I woke up in the morning from people I didn't even expect! I don't think anyone at Cornerstone actually remembered. Ben said Happy Birthday, but that was about it. Chip got me a Copeland shirt the very last day though, so that was awesome. I was hoping that we could do something, like go out, for my birthday when we got back, and I was assured we would...but that hasn't happened yet. I suppose it's too late now. I'll just hope that next year I'll actually get to do something special. This is year two of not really doing anything.
Anyway, on the negative side of being at Cornerstone and seeing all kinds of sweet bands and people, I developed an allergic reaction to the pesticide that was sprayed on every inch of the site and had itchy skin the entire week. At first, it was only on my feet, but it got on my ankles, arms, and hands. I'm just thankful that it didn't spread to my face. Did I let all that stop me from crowding my way up to the front row of Copeland? No way! I was in the front row right in front of Aaron Marsh, and it was fantastic. They played every song that I wanted to hear! It was wonderful.
We camped with Landon and his band. They're all pretty nice guys. I also saw Dustin and Caleb's band. Wow. Umm...they look absolutely ridiculous. Dustin looks like a fat lesbian goth chick, and Caleb is this angular, skinny, tall boy. Their music wasn't bad, but it wasn't good live. Sounds better online.

4th of July: Went over to Ben's house for a bbq with his family. The kids were outside playing with fireworks when we discovered that one of them had flung one towards the house. It went into this small hole, caught animal hair and fuzz from the siding on fire and burned up through the wall of their house. The fire dept. was called in time and nothing huge was damaged. Hopefully, their homeowner's insurance will pay for it. Ben and I hung out, ate, and then drove up to P-Hill to meet up with Beth, Josh (blech.), Chip, and Chelsea at Beth's dad's house. We all went swimming, drank some wine, smoked some cigs, and just had a good time. I'm not really sure how it happened, but me, Ben, Chip, and Chelsea ended up skinny dipping while Beth and Josh had a fight inside. We got out, dried off, and found out that Josh had left. He texted Beth later and said that he had been arrested for drunk driving. No one believed him. Later on, Chelsea and Chip went to get Taco Bell and Chip came back alone. Apparently, Chelsea was a bit more intoxicated than we had thought and she was being taken to the P-Hill jail. What an end to the night...

Tonight: I'm going to see Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix! I'm pretty excited. Chip's getting out tickets and a bunch of us are meeting up in Lee's Summit to go see it. Ben hasn't seen all the movies, so he's missing out tonight. I've been looking forward to this since I found out the release date for the movie in January!
This Saturday, we're all going to Worlds of Fun...it should be a good time. I went last year on Father's Day and had a great time.

I guess I don't really have anything else to say...and if I do, I'm just tired of writing right now. I'm going to go work on a creative project.

5 year anniversary, maid of honor/wedding, and Cornerstone

What a busy lady I've been the past week.





Friday was our 5 year anniversary. It was pretty simple, but that's what we both decided on. We're both working hard for the money...and are coming up short. ha. I've got some nice pictures though.








5 years is a long time...but not really, when you think about it being a tiny part of your future together. It's been rocky, it's been amazing, it's been a journey and we've come so far. I'm proud of us!


So I was in a wedding today. The maid of honor. The preparations were hectic and we ran late (of course), but the ceremony was beautiful. I've known the bride for almost 10 years now, and the groom for almost 6. Wonderful ceremony, awesome reception, and they're both as happy as can be! I can't really say much more than that. I got some good ideas for the wedding that is hopefully going to occur sometime in my future. I saw some stuff that I could do and some that I definitely won't do. ha.
Now for the ridiculousness of the day:
1. The preacher was really bossy and wanted things done his way. It was quite annoying. He had these giant gaudy rings on his hands and made sure that they were showing when pictures were being taken.
2. The morning of the wedding, the bride's brother and girlfriend got into a fight. She pushed him, he pushed her back and she fell and broke her arm. That's the story they gave us. Not sure if he did it himself or if the push really did do it.
3. The other bridesmaid is quite weird. She kept singing songs from popular musicals VERY loud, and sounded very much like American Idol wannabes. It was annoying. Well, the day of the wedding, she faked having breathing problems. She wasn't sick. I can see through bad acting. She did this several times during the course of the day, but miraculously felt better in time to sing a song to the bride and groom. Lordy. At one point, she was grasping the wall and pretending to cry (there were no tears). I couldn't believe that no one else could see that she was faking it. She even got carried out to the car! She refused pain medicine AND refused to call her mother. Does that sound like someone who actually has something wrong with her? No. I know I'm going on and on about this, but I hate fakers...especially when they're seeking attention at times when the attention should be one someone else (hello? The BRIDE AND GROOM!). Oh well. She's a weirdo, and with luck, I'll never have to see her again.
4. My cell phone got taken. I heard my phone ringing right before I went out and did my maid of honor walk down the aisle, and I pushed the button to ignore the call. I set it on the table...3 people saw me do this...well, I walked in right after the ceremony and it was gone. I tried to call it, and it was turned off. I was freaking out because it had pictures of Philip on there, and I didn't save those to my computer. I prayed all the way to the reception, and when the bride's sister got there, she handed it to me. She told me that someone had found it out in the middle of the yard! So someone had taken it out there and dropped it or just left it out there. I'm thankful. Phones can be replaced, pictures can't.


I leave...technically tonight...for Cornerstone. Hopefully, Chip has gotten ahold of Tim and we have directions. I have to do laundry when I wake up and finish packing. I'm definitely bringing a book to read on the way. I can't handle mindless chatter for 6.5 hours. Not that it's going to be ALL mindless, but if I don't want to talk, I'll have something do do besides play with my phone.

I cannot wait to see all the bands. Copeland is going to be playing a smaller stage (thank goodness), so I"m going to have to get there WAY early to be up front. ah, if only I had a backstage pass, I wouldn't have to deal with the damn audience. I can't stand the stupid Christian scene kids that think the most ridiculous things are funny. I will break them.

I'm off to bed. Got to get some sleep for tomorrow!

Close your eyes and it will come to you.

Work tonight was lame.
No work tomorrow. I think I'll sleep in.

I miss my friends who don't live near me. Damn gas prices.

5 year anniversary is this Friday and we have no plans. Goodness.

Birthday is in a week, and nothing has been planned. Goodness.

Cornerstone is going to be awesome.

...
Also...
why is it that you need to save money when I ask you to come up, but you can afford it when someone else wants you to?
Also...
why do you always forget to tell me about stuff?

Gah. I'm hoping tonight will be fun, and not disappointing.

Funeral today

Went to Aunt Ruby's funeral today. It was a very nice service. I didn't talk to her husband. I just couldn't bring myself to talk to someone who had mistreated his wife for almost 60 years and for mistreating his kids for pretty much their entire lives. Blah. I am glad that she is finally out of pain, and her dementia is notw gone. She's at peace in Heaven, and that's all anyone could ask for.

I work tonight...by myself. Not too excited, but it's a Monday, and that's how it goes. It just seems dumb to have 3 people working during the day and only one at night. Oh well.

One more thing:
It's kind of frustrating being kind, considerate, and understanding to everything...and then getting jumped on because of a voice inflection that a certain person didn't like. Are you kidding me? I'm sorry that you're having a "grumpy day", but that doesn't mean that you get to take it out on me. You've had a lot of grumpy days lately and I've been feeling the brunt of your irritation. Stop it. I'm not doing anything. I'm having a hard month, and you're not doing anything to make it any easier on me.

4 days until our 5 year anniversary
7 days until we leave for Cornerstone
8 days until my birthday

I'll share some pictures of the day:

You know, I had a great day today, and it was kind of brought down by an attitude.

I guess that from now on, I can only be excited about something or interested in something as long as everyone else is interested in it and just as excited about it. I guess that's what I'm supposed to do. It doesn't matter that I get excited for everyone when something cool happens to/for them, regardless of my interest or excitement in it.

Police!

I had to call the police while I was at work today.
Lately, we've been getting these harassing phone calls at work, and they've started to get scary/creepy. They told one girl that they were watching her, and then asked her how she was in bed. It's just scary, especially when you're getting them when you're alone in the store.
Well, today I got one. First, line 2 rang. Line 2 doesn't ring unless: a. someone is on line 1 (no one was) or b. they know the number. Well, as soon as I got to the phone (2 rings), they hung up. Line 1 started ringing and I answered it. An older man's voice came over the phone, "How good are you at tickeling?" Ok, stupid, but scary too. I said, "Listen. I'm absolutely sick to death of these phone calls. We've called the police and we're tracing the numbers that come into this store. They're tracing your number right now, so you'd better stop it." I then hung up. They're not tracing our numbers, but I hope it scared them. I called the police, and they filed a report.
I really hope that shit stops.

Going over to Beth's tonight. She's having a bonfire at her house, and I really hope it's like old times. I used to have so much fun at her dad's! Hopefully, this shall be an enjoyable night.

I'm officially done with my summer class. My last essay sucked, and I didn't participate much in the discussion board, but I only needed to keep 6 points to keep a B, and I'm pretty sure I achieved that. Not too hard. No more boring scholarly journals or stupid articles by psuedo-intellectuals for me! I'm FREE! (Well, not really...I've still got to work.

6 more days until our 5 year anniversary
9 more days until we leave for Cornerstone
10 more days until my birthday

yaaaaaaaaaaaaay.

My stomach hurts.

I honestly don't understand people sometimes.

Something sad happened, and you just casually brush it off your shoulder. No words of comfort. Just brush it off and don't worry about it. Oh, and then pick at me about something minuscule furthuring my irratation. Oh, and then pick at me about something else. Please, continue on. I'm pretty much done calling you for any kind of support. I'll only get it from my mom from now on.
Stop playing your game when I'm trying to talk to you.
When I said I had a really bad day, you said, "No worries." What? Were you even listening to what I was saying? No. You weren't. You were playing your game and giving that your attention. When will I be number 1?
Whatever.

Some exciting things are coming up, and I'm not even excited.

I've lost someone for the third time this year. Goodbye, Aunt Ruby. I'll never forget the delicious brownies you gave me when I came over to your house. I'm sorry I didn't get to see you before you go. I hope that now that you're in Heaven, you can remember everything all over again. Just know that you were wonderful, and enjoy your time with Grandma. I hope you're happy and peaceful now.

Why is it that death is coming around this year? Phillip, Emma, Aunt Ruby. 3 people in less than 6 months. Last year was Dean and Harry. I shouldn't be able to name 5 people who have died in less than 2 year's time. I'm only 21. I shouldn't be losing this many people. It's making me afraid of losing people even more. I'm terrified to lose my mom. I don't know what I would do. I fought with her so much growing up, pushed her away, we both misunderstood one another, and now we're closer than I could have ever imagined. What will I do when she's gone? It's a fear that I carry with me everyday. I haven't told anyone, because everyone I know just brushes serious stuff that I say right off. So I keep it inside.