It feels like this summer is just starting. June always feels that way for me.
June 10th will mark the 7 year anniversary of when I lost my grandma. It's still really hard to think about the fact that I'm living my life without her in it. I'm very thankful that my mom and I are close now, just as close as my grandma and I were. I need that kind of relationship. I don't really know what to say, because what I'm thinking gets jumbled up if I try to express it through talking or writing. I just can't get it out. I can't express how I feel about it.
This will be a good month though:
5 year anniversary
Cornerstone
birthday
Hopefully all of those will be amazing. I just want something special planned for me. Just once. Something done for me as a surprise. Something that will make me think, "Wow. [insert name here] really gave a lot of thought about me to make [insert event here] special. I'm lucky." That's all I want. Maybe I sound whiney or childish, but this is exactly how I feel.
June 10th will mark the 7 year anniversary of when I lost my grandma. It's still really hard to think about the fact that I'm living my life without her in it. I'm very thankful that my mom and I are close now, just as close as my grandma and I were. I need that kind of relationship. I don't really know what to say, because what I'm thinking gets jumbled up if I try to express it through talking or writing. I just can't get it out. I can't express how I feel about it.
This will be a good month though:
5 year anniversary
Cornerstone
birthday
Hopefully all of those will be amazing. I just want something special planned for me. Just once. Something done for me as a surprise. Something that will make me think, "Wow. [insert name here] really gave a lot of thought about me to make [insert event here] special. I'm lucky." That's all I want. Maybe I sound whiney or childish, but this is exactly how I feel.
In other news, I wish people would shut the hell up about Paris Hilton. I don't care if she's in jail. I think she should have to spend more than the 20 odd days she has because other people in her situation would. Stupid trumped up wanna be celebrity. Geeze. It wouldn't be a big deal, but it's on EVERY channel. I just need to turn my tv off.
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